It's funny how life works out. We go through waves of good and bad, easy and difficult, simple and complicated. It's never black, it's never white, just gray and gray and gray. But sometimes it's not. Sometimes it's red and blue and green. Sometimes it's magenta and silver and periwinkle. Sometimes it's rainbows and prisms and patterns and everything all at once-- and sometimes it feels like nothing.
Remember when you were a kid and you discovered something exciting that you wanted to show all your friends? "Hey, watch this," you'd say. Maybe it was that you learned how to do a cartwheel, or ride your bike without holding onto the handlebars. Maybe you rounded up enough courage to poke an angry dog with a stick while it was sleeping, or pull on your big sister's pigtail when she wasn't looking. It was always that mix of pride, doubt, and pure, sweet adrenaline. And then that huge sense of wonder when you finally took the plunge-- that was the best part. Did I really just do that? That's how I feel now.
Watch this.
I close my eyes and when I open them I'm suddenly a businesswoman. I'm learning about accounting and income tax. About marketing and vendor's licenses and limited liability companies. I'm reading contracts and writing emails and calculating expenses.
Watch this.
One moment I am artless and without inspiration; the next I have a camera in my hand and a vision in my head. I'm remembering all I've forgotten and learning all I never knew.
Watch this. I'm stumbling in the dark, groping for the nearest way out. I panic, I flee, I carve out a path of destruction... and with the flick of a switch I am able to see again.
Watch this. Blink, blink, and blink again. I'm a writer, I'm an artist, I'm an organizer. I'm all three at once, and all three separately. Blink again, and I'm so much more. I'm a screenwriter, I'm a photographer, I'm a filmmaker, I'm a treasurer, I'm a stage manager, I'm a marketing coordinator, I'm a designer. I build websites, I create logos, I play an instrument, I paint pictures.
Watch this. Watch as I grow. Watch as I succeed. Watch as I become everything I was meant to be and more. Watch as I do things I never thought I'd do.
Watch as I become something great.
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